Where is this blog going?

We are all looking through the window, searching for answers.

I am passionate about creating photographs and video content with my mobile phone, hence why I sent up this blog. However I am having to overcome my own feelings and anxiety, just so I can post.

I’ve become aware of my own lack of self esteem and confidence, fearful of the reaction from others. Ok I’m recovering from cancer, but I’m not let that define me. I have a loving family and we are happy. However I have become even more aware of those who don’t have what I’ve got. Those in food poverty, abusive relationships, slavery, PTSD, unemployed, war zones and the list goes on and on. My thoughts are with those who struggle with their daily life. Stay safe and stop trying to figure shit out! Enjoy the moment, things hopefully will get better.

The leaves are falling. So are people…

Autumn changes lives for so many, with the onset of the darker nights can being on darker moods for many.

Autumn is time of cosy jumpers, log fires and hot chocolate. However for those suffering with mental health issues, it is the lead up to most stressful time of the year. Christmas! We are bombarded with commercials wanting our money, celebrities telling us it’s all about family time. People’s stress level skyrocket driven by materialism and perception of that we have got to be happy and thankful!

DON’T listen!! Create your own stress free and mindful Christmas. Don’t visit those relatives that are negative and bring you down. Call them instead, that way you’re still safe at home. Visit people who want to be with you and love you. Don’t overindulge in alcohol as it’s a game changed for your mental health, in a bad way.

Love yourself first as that is the only way others will love you back. Buy yourself a present, wrap it up and put it under the tree and give it to yourself at Christmas. Write on the tag, ‘To me, from me, love me!’ Reflect on the year and how you’re dealt with your issues. Always remember that there is a guy in Liverpool, UK who wrote this at the end of October, wishing you love, happiness and a wonderful Christmas.

Attack of the self esteems!!

Having loads of creative ideas, visions and inspiration amounts to diddly if you don’t believe in yourself. I have just described my life. I have battled the oppressors, the bullies head on and won. But it leaves you drained, wounded and broken. I don’t fear anyone on the planet, only myself. Have a great week and keep having those creative farts!!

Creative cold turkey!!!

Going on a family holiday is fab. There is nothing like a break from your daily rut to get the creative juices flowing. So we’ve been back nearly a week and I am suffering from ‘creative cold turkey’. If you really want to know, me and the family went to Norway, which is an absolutely stunning country. Being a photographer and film maker, Norway has inspired me no end. As I am writing this I can feel the anxiety flowing away from me, it is has become a ‘fix’ for me. I need my ‘creative fix’.

My wife Claire shot the above photograph on my iPhone XR, using the fantastic Moment app coupled with their anamorphic lens. You can see the outer edges of the photograph are a little stretched and bendy, but I really like this effect. However the centre is fine. I did shoot a shed load of images and I’m so excited to share them as they will be used as ammunition for my upcoming blogs. Hope you like the images that I post as they are all shot and edited by yours truly.

Just a little footnote: my site is called ‘selfie esteem media’ the reason being is that I want to tackle the issues that social media can have on a person’s self esteem and self confidence. I didn’t realise that I would have to deal with my own self esteem issues before I can progress and do justice to the vision that I want to share with the world…

When you feel the need…

To spill your thoughts and coffee on social media!

Yesterday I shared my iced latte on instagram. Why did I do this? I did it to show how crazy social media is and how people can judge you by your posts. When I was younger, growing up in probably the toughest northern city in the UK, I would have received a punch on the nose for taking a photograph of an iced latte. Come to think of it I would have also received a punch on the nose for even ordering an iced latte!

That said social media has allowed countless millions across the world to have a voice. Our mobile phones have enabled the human race to rant, troll, buy, sell and make their cat a superstar. Sit and take a minute to think about this. People are dying in Syria, Yemen, Sudan and every other planet on the earth, but hey look at the cute cat doing some daft shit!

Anyway you crazy guys please enjoy your day and spread some happiness out there, god knows we need it.

Crazy busy day!

Trying to find peace in a peace exempt day!

My little health scare has well and truly kicked me well up the arse. Like many others I have planned and thought through my blog posts to the level of a military operation, however I just haven’t hit the ‘publish’ button.

When I watch other creators on YouTube or read their blogs, I dream that I too can be like them. The thing is that’s all I do, is dream. NO MORE! I’m going for this and it will be my legacy for family to reflect, laugh and smile on my silly rambling.

Wow 2 posts in one day…WTF!

This is me trying to be really proactive by posting twice in one day. I’ve been busy filming, however I’m not sharing my work which is the whole point of having a blog. Thank you all in advance for likes and comments. Enjoy.

Film making is becoming more accessible to all with the advancement of the mobile phone. Let’s try and get a slice of the Hollywood pie!