I am passionate about creating photographs and video content with my mobile phone, hence why I sent up this blog. However I am having to overcome my own feelings and anxiety, just so I can post.
I’ve become aware of my own lack of self esteem and confidence, fearful of the reaction from others. Ok I’m recovering from cancer, but I’m not let that define me. I have a loving family and we are happy. However I have become even more aware of those who don’t have what I’ve got. Those in food poverty, abusive relationships, slavery, PTSD, unemployed, war zones and the list goes on and on. My thoughts are with those who struggle with their daily life. Stay safe and stop trying to figure shit out! Enjoy the moment, things hopefully will get better.
My last post touched on self esteem and how social media impacts on our own self esteem. I have worked with so many talented creative people, who run a mile when a camera lens is pointed in their general direction. Is it because they haven’t had their final make up and costume checks? No. It’s because they are deeply unhappy with how they look. Ok, this could be a deep routed issue from childhood? However the pressures of social media dictate that we all must look perfect and that we absolutely must get 1000’s of likes or we are a failure!
I sadly see this everyday with the young people that I teach. They are starting out on life, but feel that they are failures due to their social media accounts. This needs change. As well as saving the whales, the rain forests and the planet? How about saving our young people?
Having loads of creative ideas, visions and inspiration amounts to diddly if you don’t believe in yourself. I have just described my life. I have battled the oppressors, the bullies head on and won. But it leaves you drained, wounded and broken. I don’t fear anyone on the planet, only myself. Have a great week and keep having those creative farts!!
Going on a family holiday is fab. There is nothing like a break from your daily rut to get the creative juices flowing. So we’ve been back nearly a week and I am suffering from ‘creative cold turkey’. If you really want to know, me and the family went to Norway, which is an absolutely stunning country. Being a photographer and film maker, Norway has inspired me no end. As I am writing this I can feel the anxiety flowing away from me, it is has become a ‘fix’ for me. I need my ‘creative fix’.
My wife Claire shot the above photograph on my iPhone XR, using the fantastic Moment app coupled with their anamorphic lens. You can see the outer edges of the photograph are a little stretched and bendy, but I really like this effect. However the centre is fine. I did shoot a shed load of images and I’m so excited to share them as they will be used as ammunition for my upcoming blogs. Hope you like the images that I post as they are all shot and edited by yours truly.
Just a little footnote: my site is called ‘selfie esteem media’ the reason being is that I want to tackle the issues that social media can have on a person’s self esteem and self confidence. I didn’t realise that I would have to deal with my own self esteem issues before I can progress and do justice to the vision that I want to share with the world…
My son, Joshua, has escaped to camp with the Cub Scouts for 5 days. This is first adventure without mum and dad since forever. So my wife and I have loads of time to kill. Claire went clothes shopping, while I tried out some dodgy long exposure shots outside. I used the moment app. Which is so good, I doubt I’ll ever use my DSLR’s again! I used Snapseed app to edit, which I find so easy and intuitive to use. I’m into grainy, vignettes at the moment as I’m always up for trying new things creatively. No matter how rubbish the weather is, get out there a shoot stuff. Have play with those ideas that have been spinning around your head.
So it’s train home, kettle on and settle down to watch ‘killing Eve’ on catch up. Rock & Roll baby!