Attack of the self esteems!!

Having loads of creative ideas, visions and inspiration amounts to diddly if you don’t believe in yourself. I have just described my life. I have battled the oppressors, the bullies head on and won. But it leaves you drained, wounded and broken. I don’t fear anyone on the planet, only myself. Have a great week and keep having those creative farts!!

Creative cold turkey!!!

Going on a family holiday is fab. There is nothing like a break from your daily rut to get the creative juices flowing. So we’ve been back nearly a week and I am suffering from ‘creative cold turkey’. If you really want to know, me and the family went to Norway, which is an absolutely stunning country. Being a photographer and film maker, Norway has inspired me no end. As I am writing this I can feel the anxiety flowing away from me, it is has become a ‘fix’ for me. I need my ‘creative fix’.

My wife Claire shot the above photograph on my iPhone XR, using the fantastic Moment app coupled with their anamorphic lens. You can see the outer edges of the photograph are a little stretched and bendy, but I really like this effect. However the centre is fine. I did shoot a shed load of images and I’m so excited to share them as they will be used as ammunition for my upcoming blogs. Hope you like the images that I post as they are all shot and edited by yours truly.

Just a little footnote: my site is called ‘selfie esteem media’ the reason being is that I want to tackle the issues that social media can have on a person’s self esteem and self confidence. I didn’t realise that I would have to deal with my own self esteem issues before I can progress and do justice to the vision that I want to share with the world…

Child free days…

Cub scouts rule!

My son, Joshua, has escaped to camp with the Cub Scouts for 5 days. This is first adventure without mum and dad since forever. So my wife and I have loads of time to kill. Claire went clothes shopping, while I tried out some dodgy long exposure shots outside. I used the moment app. Which is so good, I doubt I’ll ever use my DSLR’s again! I used Snapseed app to edit, which I find so easy and intuitive to use. I’m into grainy, vignettes at the moment as I’m always up for trying new things creatively. No matter how rubbish the weather is, get out there a shoot stuff. Have play with those ideas that have been spinning around your head.

So it’s train home, kettle on and settle down to watch ‘killing Eve’ on catch up. Rock & Roll baby!

Hurry up and wait!

It’s a strange time of the year for me, as I hurry up and wait for the summer to be over! What? Why? Am I mad? NOPE! It’s all about being a dad. My 8 year old son is about to break for the summer and he is looking forward to lots of adventures with his dad, whilst mum is still at work.

I know that it is a total role reversal with me being at home and my wife at work. You see, since I returned to work in at the start of term in sept 2016, after my cancer treatment, I returned worked part time. This is because my priorities changed from career to family, also my wife is amazing and I wants to support her career. I have had an amazing career working in television and education, but having a shit time getting through stage 4 cancer I decided that my wife and son come first.

I’m all better at the moment, reference my previous post about having to go back in august, I think that I’ll be ok.

So the summer is a time that my creatively is put on hold, to be replaced with ice creams, rainy days out and Lego!

When you feel the need…

To spill your thoughts and coffee on social media!

Yesterday I shared my iced latte on instagram. Why did I do this? I did it to show how crazy social media is and how people can judge you by your posts. When I was younger, growing up in probably the toughest northern city in the UK, I would have received a punch on the nose for taking a photograph of an iced latte. Come to think of it I would have also received a punch on the nose for even ordering an iced latte!

That said social media has allowed countless millions across the world to have a voice. Our mobile phones have enabled the human race to rant, troll, buy, sell and make their cat a superstar. Sit and take a minute to think about this. People are dying in Syria, Yemen, Sudan and every other planet on the earth, but hey look at the cute cat doing some daft shit!

Anyway you crazy guys please enjoy your day and spread some happiness out there, god knows we need it.

Wow 2 posts in one day…WTF!

This is me trying to be really proactive by posting twice in one day. I’ve been busy filming, however I’m not sharing my work which is the whole point of having a blog. Thank you all in advance for likes and comments. Enjoy.

Film making is becoming more accessible to all with the advancement of the mobile phone. Let’s try and get a slice of the Hollywood pie!